A Rendezvous with me....Part-2 (Career)

Actually m not getting perfect sentence to start this phase of my life, but still let me try……..

My hunt for a “Good” career started in a wrong year when recession was at its peak and, there were no jobs in market.

I have tried to summarize it city wise, though a single blog wasn’t enough for my bad days but still…..

New Delhi --- I went to New Delhi with lots of dream filled in my eyes, hoping for getting a kick start. I used to leave my room in the morning around 7.00 am formally dressed up, running from company to company. At times I had to request the security guards to let me go inside to meet HR but they didn’t allow, of course why would they, it’s their Job.

I used to eat only twice in a day and rest of the times just drinking water (1/- per glass). My dad used to say “Vicky, don’t worry about the money, just eat and drink healthy”. But I never did, because I didn’t want to waste his money and wanted to take a feel of what exactly struggle is all about. Of course you cannot call it a struggle while riding in big cars, enjoying weekends, living a hi-fi life style.

Got a job after 1 month and 2 week as a Game Tester, that also on contract basis, working in the graveyard shift from 4.00 pm to Morning 6:00 am, though my regular shift timings were 4.00 pm to 2:00 am only but I used to sit till morning because there was a policy of getting 100/- bucks per hour after your regular timings. I used to get around 25-30 thousand at the end of each month but it affected my health, cigarette intake increased, so it was not a good experience and worst part was that I didn’t get any relevant document for working in the company so in a way I have no record as such for that period.

I remember going in HCL Technologies every Saturday, standing outside their office to get an entry, reason being I came to know that HCL conducts interviews on weekends. I attended the interview 12 times in 3 months then finally 13^th time there was an HR who felt pity (best word to describe) on me and told me that he won’t be able to hire me directly for Software profile but for a BPO and then I can be transferred internally after 9 months. But after working for 6 months I realised this is not what I want, So I decided to quit and left the company on 31^st August, 2010.

Mumbai --- After that I went to Mumbai in search of Job. But after continuous travelling in local, running from office to office nothing materialised in IT sector. Eventhough I went to a local wholesale dealer of clothes to work for 4,000/- per month and the work included only operating his computer and updating sale/purchase made on daily basis. Surviving on Vada Pav and water during day time and 4 chapatis and daal at night.

Bangalore—Finally I decided to move to Bangalore a dream city for every IT engineer present in India. Hoping that things would turn into my favour. I stayed there with my cousin sister and his husband. Again my search for job started but result was same as of Delhi and Mumbai. There wasn’t a single company to entertain a fresher like me.

p.s. -- Don’t feel that my dad wasn’t capable enough to provide me with good food and shelter, it’s just that I chose it the other way so that when I start getting success in Life, feelings like ‘Proudness’, ’Anger’ etc. doesn’t even touch me. They used to provide me with lots of money during those days but I never wasted it or tried to minimise my requirements.

At times I got reply from various companies “Sandeep, You shouldn’t join IT World”, “Sandeep, You have wasted being an Engineer, you should have gone for any other background”, “Sandeep, You are only wasting ours as well as your time”, and many other too, by hearing them I used to control my tears infront of everyone but at night I couldn’t. I used to cry a lot when alone in my flat but decided not to give up and keep fighting.

So, finally I did Post Graduation and got a Job in Software Company as a Test Engineer through campus placement.

Now when I close my eyes and look back the struggle which I once made myself go through, seems worth, as things are slowly and gradually turning into my favour. I have got a job today though not the one I always wanted with handsome salary and lavish lifestyle but still m satisfied with it. I know one day everything would be fine with all my dreams achieved in one or the other way. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

@Sandy.........

Learn to take Life......

A very fine dialogue by Jack Dawson (Leonardo Di Caprio) from Titanic(1997).......

I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. 

You "Learn to take Life" as it comes at you..........................................................To make each day count.

@Sandy......................

I'll Never.......

I Promise, I’ll never Leave u.

A little voice of urs makes me feel alive

A little hug of urs makes me feel happy

A little care of urs makes me feel perfect

A little love of urs makes me feel Complete

& a little ignorance of urs kills me inside

I find my reason for living in those moments

Which I have spent in ur care,with u

Now whatever pain I may get

I will never regret loving u

@Sandy...........

Happy Diwali...... :) :)

May this Diwali Light up new dreams, fresh hopes, undiscovered avenues, different perspectives, everything bright & beautiful and fill ur days with pleasant surprises and moments.

Happy Diwali to all my Readers, Fellow Bloggers and Followers......
Keep Smiling.... Bless You.. Tc......

@Sandy........

29th October,2006

(Actually this post was supposed to be up on 29^th itself bt due to lack of time I couldn’t do it. Anyway read below to find out the importance of this day in my Life……… Here I go….)

How can I forget this day, the day which brought at first smiles and Life time memories to me. Yeah, on 29^th October,2006 sweets accepted my proposal after thinking for exact 26 days, (I proposed her on 3^rd October,2006).

I still remember, it was “Karwa Chauth” that year and in the morning I received a call from her that she would be taking a fast for me. I felt so glad about it and also decided to eat nothing whole day though I kept drinking water ofcourse. At night again she called me up and told me to come outside her house so that she could break her fast just by catching a glimpse of me. So as planned I went outside her house with a friend of mine and after watching me she took a sip of water.

Later while returning to my hostel, she called me up:

Sweets: “Listen, I need to tell you something important”

Me: “Yeah say, what happened?”

Sweets: “(blushing like anything and my heart started pounding) Sandeep”

Me: “Yes sweets”

Sweets: “Sandeep, I…… “

Me: “I.. what yaar”

Sweets: “Shut up and just listen….. I…..Love…..You…..too”

Me: “What (unintentionally I applied brakes of my bike, for few moments I couldn’t believe myself), Thank You sweets, I love you a lot”

This is how she accepted my proposal, I still remember her each line word by word, and when her memories strike me, suddenly my heart feels so lonely, tears come rolling down my eyes, aaahhhhh I really Loved her like anything.

You know when she broke up with me I asked her this question of keeping a “Karwa Chauth” fast for me, I was shocked to hear her reply “Sandeep, it’s a tradition in my house, so that’s no big deal for me, I keep it every year, so how does it matter if I said 2 years it was for you”. This line hurted me so much that I decided no matter what I won’t call her ever. I still don’t call but it’s her only, from time to time she keeps talking to me, knowing about my whereabouts.

It doesn’t matter how hard my try and bury the fact in my heart that I have moved on in my life, but the problem is that whenever I return home, someway or the other I have to face the truth….. I feel so lonely and emptiness in my life without you.

@Sandy...................... 

Shut Up & Kiss Me......

This one is from my college days...juz randomly came to my mind...those days Sweets(still I don't take her name publicly) was with me.....

Plot: Sweets put a ban on me that I won't talk to any gal except my sisters after 10:00 pm. And as usual I agreed to it, since it was my habit to fulfill her every wish.

Our relationship was only 4 months old and after putting this ban she was as usual quite Happy, hehe, (aahhh i loved to do anything juz to bring a smile on her face).

Date: 14/02/2007 (Valentines Day) 

We had an awesome day together, I bunked my college and she came to meet me, we went for lunch nd then preffered staying at my flat whole day.
I loved watching her talking to me, at times she used to pinch me 'dun luk at me like that', hehe, but coudn't help. She used to blush a lot after finding out that m still luking at her with lots of luv filled in my eyes. She left my flat at 6:00 pm for her home. I went to my friends place.

Around 9:45 my mobile started ringing displaying "Calling Anamika", I looked at watch nd was relaxed to see hv still got 15 mins to go (do u see the terror of her, hehe)

I don't know how but I surpassed the border of 10:00 pm, and my call wait showed me "Calling sweets", i immediately disconnected Anamika call and received Sweets.
Everything was normal until I myself accepted the crime (she used to call it, as if hv commited a murder) by telling her the time and name of person I was talking to.

Now you can expect the result, I felt as if an Atom Bomb has been dropped on my head and even after saying sorry for more than 100 times over phone, she disconnected  the call saying "I don't wanna talk to you again". (will cut this story short, wait for my novel).....

It's been two days since she was angry with me, i said sorry to her numerous times through sms/call/orkut...but she was still angry.....

Every time I called her, she only said few things, "Don't talk to me","You don't luv me","You are a lier","Do watever you want,I won't say anything to you", nd blah blah blah blah......

Finally, I convinced her to meet me but that also on her condition "Sandeep, we won't meet again in future,this is the last time" (and this last time, lasted for two more years until she really left me to burn in agony and pain.). I agreed coz I knew if she comes down to meet me, her anger wud disappear.

She came down to my flat, as soon as she came inside my room, I hugged her and said sorry holding her face in my palms. After pampering and saying sorry to her I was able to melt her down,
I was saying "sorry baba, sorry na, i won't repeat it again"

She juz said : "Shut-up and Kiss Me"......After that We kissed.... nd she pinched me whispering in my ears "I Love You a lot, baby, don't ever leave me"....

Now I know: The Best kind of Kiss is when u've to stop coz u can't help but Smile.

But today I wonder........ Did she really mean those words ???? m still trying to figure out the answer.

@Sandy................

A Rendezvous with me....Part 1(Introduction)

Hello everyone, in this part of my series I would discuss different phases of my Life,including my personal life,career,family,friends and the only love of my life (X-GF).

Well generally this word "Rendezvous" is associated with two people one being 'Host' and the other as 'Guest' but not on my blog. First let me tell you the meaning of this word, "Rendezvous" means "A meeting at a prearranged time and place" (dis is wat google says). There won't be any 'Simi Garewal' to host this series as you might have seen on 'Star World' TV series.
Now a question, How many of you have spent time alone, i don't mean for few minutes or hours, what I mean is most of your time as in for Days, weeks, years. (I want my every reader to answer this question in the comment section of dis post).

If you have spent some time lonely with no one around, then I guess you might be able to figure out what m I going to discuss in further post. Any Idea Sir g ?????

Alright, to start with, let me tell you that I have been away from Home for around 9 years, doesn't mean my family abandoned me, its just for the sake of my studies nd now it's Job. aaahhhhh 9 longgggg years, sounds  pretty difficult but not to me anymore, I'm now kinda in a habit of living like this.

You know, I have struggled a lot in my Life staying away from home, at times I used to return my home during night either coz of studies(college life) or job(present), there was no one to talk with,no one to give me food served hot in a dish, leave the food at times even after returning home I have to clean my dishes as well before dinner or sometimes if it was too late I used to sleep after having biscuits only. 

I do have friends (a lot), love my family and socialize a lot, but this part is not about them it's all about the time I have spent alone sitting in my room, just watching movies or thinking or writing or simply lying down on my bed with my eyes closed.

So, I hope you getting my point now, those were the times when I really explored myself a lot, I came to know what actually I want, how to get it,where to find it nd blah blah blah. Those days made me a strong guy, with lots of maturity inside me. Life taught me great and important lessons,now be it any situation I don't loose my patience, keep myself calm and have a strong faith in my destiny.There were times in my life when there was no one to advice me regarding the situation, ofcourse friends/family played their part but still in real time I had to deal with it.

I now believe 'Everything Happens for a reason',though still trying to figure out what that reason was/is, and yeah m living with every change my Life brought in front of me, at times it was surprising other times shocking.No matter what might be the situation, I have learned to smile, nd don't feel the mental stress at all, trust me,smiling does work.

So, welcome to "Rendezvous with Me...." hope u'll like it.....this was just an introduction.... c ya soon with next part....

till then.... 

Keep Smiling....

@Sandy..............

Love v/s Sex

Bless your beautiful hide

Wherever you may be

We haven’t met yet

But I’m willing to bet

That you’re the one for me!

And so goes the song from the Hollywood classic of yesteryears, ‘Seven Brides for Seven Brothers’ and this song is precisely what Love is.

We all know that man is a social being. However man is also a lonely being. (And when I say man, I mean women too). Man longs for company.

Company not just from friends and the family, but from that special person with whom he or she can share those sweet nothings, those simple pleasures and pains, someone with whom he or she can build a whole new life, someone with whom he or she can raise a family of his or her own.

Now this is a fundamental need of man: to find a life mate. And the most popular method used for this is to be in Love. When we talk about Love in the very finest sense of the word, please understand that it should not be viewed as a precursor for sleeping together. It is much more than that. It is the first step towards choosing a life partner.

Let’s face it, of course sex is important, but sex is by far not the most important reason for being in Love.

Maybe during the age of thoughtless youth, when new hormones are being pumped in and out, sex is on every one’s mind. But as one matures (mind you that does not mean growing old and gray ) sex takes the back seat and mutual support, likes and dislikes, cooperation, caring and sharing come to the  forefront. We start thinking about building up a world of our own and we need someone to share it with, and not just someone to sleep with.

Nobody, not one of us, is complete without a partner; our aim should be not finding the right sex partner, but finding the right life partner.

Now what you do and what you want is entirely your business. I don’t want to sound nosey but I would like to draw a fine line between Love and Sex.

Just try to think and differentiate between the two, you will get to know that Love is the most beautiful feeling present on this lovely planet earth, people who are in Love would understand my article but people looking for lust instead won’t understand it.

@Sandy...............

Friends First.....

Today, while enjoying Tea outside my office with FRIENDS, we all were laughing like anything even on stupid silly talks, that moment an idea sparked up in my mind “How would have Life been without FRIENDS?”

There is only one answer to this question: “Without FRIENDS: Life SUCKS”.

Try to look at this post not as a prospective but as an effort to understand the value of friends and a beautiful relation that evolves from the word itself i.e. Friendship.

We often come across a lot of people in our life but only few leave a mark on our heart that even if we r not with them, even a thought of the moment spent with them brings a smile on our face.

You might be having a lot of friends, but here I mean good friends.

Wow, now Sandy is talking about ‘Good Friends’, question is ‘how to decide who is worthy of being ‘Good Friend’?’

Friends that you can laugh aloud with, friends who make you laugh. Not everyone can make us laugh, and when I say laugh, I am not referring to some comedian. We are talking about friends here.

It really does pay to have a lot of friends. It makes one’s life richer. The best thing about friends is that you can be yourself with them. And they too can be themselves with you. And that means letting it all out.

It should be someone you can share your dreams and fears with, someone who understands, someone who can give your hand a gentle squeeze when things go wrong and someone who can brighten up your darkest day. 

F. R. I. E. N. D. S.  --- my favryt word in entire English dictionary.

This is just a small post dedicated to all my friends (be it real or net), m glad that I met you in this beautiful journey called Life.

Thank You for being there. :) :)

Keep Smiling…. Bless You… Tc….

@Sandy………..

4 years of blogging! A walk down the memory Lane…..

It all started one day while I was sitting in my hostel and thinking….. about Life, Love, friends, Family etc. Thoughts were flooding in my mind like anything, after a while I felt that m getting over ridden by it, suddenly felt an urge to jot it down somewhere, switched on my computer, and started writing something or everything on MS word, when I stopped and looked at the watch it was almost 16:00 pm, a sign of ‘wow factor’ astonished me as in that ‘yeah, I too can write’.

I was aware of blogging world but never took it seriously, but the other day I didn’t give a single thought also and searched google for a nice blog website and template, I stumbled upon Blogspot.com and a nice travel template. So here I was sitting in front of my PC with Blogpot.com displayed on it. Now there came a big question about the ‘Hyperlink’s name’ and my Blog name….

I was quite puzzled about it, nothing came to my mind for about 1 hour, reason being the name of blog matters a lot for avid readers. I decided to go for Tea and then think about it. While was enjoying my evening tea a beautiful idea about the name hit my mind, i.e. Reading is my passion, Travelling is my hobby and my blog would consist of my real life experiences. So, I combined everything into one single blog,

Let’s see how it is:

Link: www.thereader07.blogspot.com (The Reader tells how passionate I'm about reading)

Name of Blog: The Time Traveller (the spelling consists of “LL” instead of “L” , Traveller is a series of Role-Playing games so I took it from there as my blog would contain every post with my Role Play in one way or the other.)

Tagline: Welcome to a Beautiful Journey called Life…. (it’s because I consider Life very, very Beautiful)

So, this is how I came into the world of blogging and a Regular blogger was born.

Writing was my hobby since Childhood, earlier I used to write my daily routine/schedule, later when I grew up and started understanding the Nature, Life, Relations etc. it turned into different way but still , daily diary was maintained, at times I used to get surprised by the thoughts generated by my mind. There were sleepless night also where I kept thinking and writing everything down on a paper.

But now things have changed, I know how to control my thought, keep it in an order and finally “Blog” it down.

4 awesome years of blogging! Thanks a million to everyone who reads it and the kind words of encouragement you have been giving me all these years.

@Sandy………..

Random Philosophy.....

I am not religious. I was, for a couple of years, but not anymore. If forced to mention my religion, I would say I am a Hindu. I am not ritualistic but rituals fascinate me.

Now the tricky question...do I believe in God? I am not sure as of now but I know that somewhere in heart I hardly/don’t believe.

I don't believe in the bait of heaven and the threat of hell. I don't believe that there are rewards in store if you do good and punishments if you do evil. I believe that we don't need a reason to do well and there is absolutely no excuse to hurt someone.

I do not believe that we suffer for a reason. Everyone goes through the cycles of happiness and sorrow, success and failure. Experiencing failure and sorrow is an opportunity to become a stronger person and be a better fit in our personal world. More importantly, it teaches me how to deal with it when I meet it the next time.

According to me, every problem either has a solution or a work around. It is up to me to discover it. There are no dead ends in life (except for death itself).

I believe in leading a life where I am true to myself, and don't add negative energy to the word. There is just one life we get to live, and I try my best to live it to the fullest. Keeping the 'self' alive is important. I feel it is fine to make mistakes as long as I learn my lessons and I have the courage to face the consequences of my actions. I don't have too much of respect for the rules of the society, and feel following my heart is more important. I like living on the edge and, as a rule, I take all the major decisions in my life on an impulse. I believe in having absolute clarity about what my priorities in my life are, and they are just 4: my Family, my Career, my Friends and my Life. Leading my life my way is the most important thing for me.

This is how I would ideally like to live but I am human, and can't stick to everything all the time but this philosophy is my guiding light.

@Sandy.........

Recovering From Operation......

Few days back I noticed pain in my lower abdomen, that too unbearable (den i wondered that at times few pains are stronger dan a heart break... :D ), i was diagnosed with swelling in my Large Intestine. Worst part was Doctor suggested an Operation. I felt a bit nervous about the operation part but later on made up my mind to go for it, doctor told me that it's a minor Laser treatment. 
So, it happened on 27/08/2012 @ 11:00 a.m.

After that 2 weeks of bed rest and now m back to my office, slowly coping up with normal life because doc. has advised me to strictly stay away from Cigarette/Drinks/Tobacco permanently and 2 months from Oily and Spicy food.

So, finally I can say "I QUIT............................... Cigarette" because it's been already 15 days and now I dun even feel urge for it. It feels gr8 without it.

Statutory Warning: Cigarette Smoking is Injurious to Health, (trust me... I felt it, stay away)

@Sandy...................

......After a While.....

After a while you learn the subtle differences between holding a hand and
                        chaining a soul

And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning and company doesn't
                        always mean security.

And you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts and presents aren't
                        promises.

And you begin to accept your defeats with your head up and your eyes
    ahead with the grace of a woman not the grief of a child.

And you learn to build all your roads on today because tomorrow's
    ground is too uncertain and futures have a way of falling down in mid
                        flight.

After a while you learn that even sunshine burn if you get too much

So plant your own garden and decorate your own soul instead of waiting
                        for someone to bring you flowers.

And after a while you learn that you really can endure,that you are
                        really strong,and you really do have worth.

                        And you learn
  
                        And you learn

                     With every goodbye

                          You learn.

@Sandy..............

Oceans of Love....

I never force you to love me,

I never flirt with someone to make you angry,

I never warn you to do not speak with others,

I never say don't do d thing... you want,

You are like a bird form,free to fly away any where u want to go,

Only thing u must to know wherever u go or whatever you do,

When u decide to come back n feel you need me ,just remember..!

I'm always here for you, to give you Oceans of Love...

@Sandy.......

Fallen Leaf.....

I was lost in the gloomy world,
         Where shadows live in the wind!

When I needed to be delight,
         They gifted me a dark knight...!!

I had heart but... heard its beating never,

All days would be...longer than forever!!

Not sea to sky and beyond,
       I loved you in my heart-deep!

Before your springy touch,
       I was just like a fallen leaf...!!

@Sandy........

A Kiss.....

Please open you eyes,
          See the fire everywhere!

Your only sultry touch,
         Can kindle the whole ocean!!

What if your lips wait, for an alluring kiss!

What if my sweat flows, for the steamy bliss!!

I know that a single kiss,
            Can burn this whole world!

Even then O' my love,
            Can I kiss you...only once!!


@Sandy............

A Wish......

"Wish upon a star." they said
"And all your dreams will come true"
"And star?" I asked. They smiled.
"Yes, and star will do."

I thought about a wish to make
And turned to see the view
But all that I could think to wish
Was just to be with you.

So close my eyes and wish I did
And as the night turned blue
The wish star fell, and so did I...
Our dancing love renewed.


@Sandy............

6th Month Anniversary

No, No it’s not what you guys might be thinking, m still single yaar… J

Its 28^th July, 2012, read below to know what’s so special about this date.

This post is about the one and only Abhishek Dubey and Riddhi Mishra.

First of all let me congratulate to my favorites and of course Best Friend Abhishek and Riddhi on completing 6 months of their ‘Saga of Love’ ….. J

I feel the key to a successful relation is to marry the right match and work towards making it possible! And Trust me both Shivam (you might be familiar with this name from my previous article “Abhishek Dubey”) and Riddhi have worked hard to make their dream come true, and I personally address them as “World’s Best Couple” (No offence for others), everyone is best in their own way but I have known Shivam and Riddhi from past 8 years and have seen about taking every single step to make their Dream come true of being together, that’s why I consider them as “The Best” and I’m proud of it.

Now let me try to sum up in brief past 6^th months of their marriage.

It was in the month of February when they both returned to Pune after spending a gala time at Mauritius. I was as usual sitting in my room watching movie, when suddenly my mobile screen flashed ‘Calling Rids.Bebo.Pune (Riddhi)’. I received the call and was so happy to hear her voice after a gap of 2.5 months.

Riddhi: Hi Sandeep Singh, where r u?

Me: Hi Riddhi, how r u and m watching movie in my room?

Riddhi: m good Sandeep, let’s meet at ‘Dange Chowk (a place near my room)’.

Me: so u guys back in town?

Riddhi: Yups, meet us in 5 minutes.

Me: Okz.

After that I went to their elder brother’s, Akshay Bhaiya, house and spending few hours with my Best friends I came back to my room at around 2:30 am.

So, this is how I first met with them after a long gap.

And till date I have been with them every time, they made me feel comfortable like a family member and I’m proud about being friends with them. I never felt that I’m only their friend neither from Shivam nor from Riddhi. We used to hang out together every time be it shopping, dinner, drives, or at their house. If ever I meet God, would personally thank him for blessing me with two very best persons in this beautiful journey called Life (Stop it Sandeep you are not here to talk about your friendship buddy. Oh yes, sorry I got carried away, hehe)

Whenever the couple upload their pic on Facebook, they both get compliments like ‘Made for each other’, ‘Ek duje k liye’, ‘World’s Best Couple’, ‘Lovely Couple’ etc. etc. and ‘Likes’ around 50-60.

So now you can know how much people love them.

After getting married to each other their Love has flourished and bonding between them has increased day by day.

You know what only getting married with someone doesn’t guarantee a successful relationship but it takes Love, Respect, Care, Loyalty, Honesty, and being with & for each other every time. This is what Shivam and Riddhi are known for. Whenever I see them there is only one thing in my mind ‘The Perfect example of Love’.

Well, well, well, let me stop now, else I would keep on writing about them and trust me I have to remind myself that ‘Sandeep, you are sitting in your office and have got work to do, hehe’

Lastly let me quote down few Lines which I had written for them in the past 6 months:

1^st Month Anniversary: “World’s Best Couple.”

2^nd Month Anniversary: “Life is like a Piano and in order to play a sweet melody you have to         be with each other, Shivam and Riddhi have played each “stroke” with Care, Love and  Respect for each other ,Best part is……. the rhyming is still going on and world is listening to  it like forever”.

3^rd Month Anniversary: Abhishek Dubey = The Perfect Guy,

                                          Riddhi Mishra = The Perfect Girl,

                                         And

                                        Abhishek + Riddhi =World’s Best Couple.

4^th Month Anniversary: Falling in love doesn't happen just once, but every year, month, week, day, hour, minute and second of your life. With Shivam and Riddhi.... it goes on like forever.... Everytime I see them..... It means more than a SunShine for me....... And wid their Beautiful rays of LOVE....they brighten every corner of one's heart.....  

5^th Month Anniversary: Two Lives, Two Hearts, joined together in Friendship,United Forever in Love……

And

6^th Month Anniversary: Happiness keeps them Sweet, Love keeps them strong,Care keeps them together, Faith keeps them Loyal,

Loyalty keeps them Faithful, and Respect keeps them Loving.

Congratulations Guys on Completing 6 months J

J God Bless You. J

Cheers J

Note: I have mentioned Shivam and Riddhi as ‘World’s Best Couple’ very often in this post , please it’s my request to every other couple reading this post, that every couple is special in their own way, and it’s my personal observation about calling them ‘The Best’. Thanks.

@Sandy............

Wrong Number....

It was the day of my son's XII results and I was so tensed. I sat beside him while he logged on the website with his registration no.
"Ma", he screamed in excitement,
 
"I scored 1191, with centum in 4 subjects."I can't believe it. "I kind of became numb in my excitement...
 
My eyes became wet. I kissed him on his forehead and smiled." Soon we realized that he stood first in the state. Oh, my joy knew no bounds when Reporters and media persons soon swamped my house for interviews and photos. I was so honored to join him in the snaps.

I wanted to call my "wrong-number-friend" to tell him the news...... I was so excited. He was someone whom I have known for more than 20 years. I still do not remember when we became friends, but certainly cannot forget the first day he called me When I blasted him for giving me so many wrong calls..... After that he had called up a week later asking apology, for he had now got the right no of his friend whom he wanted to talk to .We spoke for an hour that day...even without knowing each other's names.

Though he kept pestering me to reveal my name I never did and so he kept a name...Sweety. I used to get so shy whenever he called me 'Sweety'. I was doing first year of BSc. Maths then, and he was a Computer Engineering student. From then he used to call me very often. We almost discussed everything .

By the final year of my college, we probably we were in love, but I had been cautious. I was in a dilemma
whether to tell him. But what if he was of a different religion? Do I have the courage to talk to my parents
about it? ........all these questions ran through my mind.
 
I decided I'll not talk to him thereafter. When he called next time I lied to him I that I was going to
Delhi for my post graduation. He gave me his office number and asked me to ring him up once I reach there.

I never called ....... A couple of months later my marriage got fixed with a guy of my parent's choice. I was not happy but I did not complain; rather accepted it as an obedient daughter. At times I felt I missed my wrong- number- friend.......

My hubby was a moody person; I have hardly spent any good time with him- but he was genuine indeed and
never bothered my personal space. After 2 years we had a boy...Yet, I was not very happy with my married
life...One day I happened to browse through my diary and found I still had my old friend's office phone no
that he had given me. I dialed it and spoke with him. He said he was married and got a kid too. I was happy
for him though in the bottom of the heart I felt bad that I could not marry him.

From then I used to occasionally call him on that number. I never gave him mine as I felt that would put
me in trouble... And till today I almost shared everything with him including my relationship with my
hubby.....today I was so happy and I wanted to call him.

Just then I got a call. "Your husband met with an accident and died on the spot"
I banged the phone down. I broke. I did not call my friend.....I somehow started feeling guilty. I have
never tried to talk to him properly when he was alive or moved close with him.... I felt I had been a bad wife........

A couple of years passed and one day my son brought home a Bengali girl and said they wanted to get married.

I got them married as I did not want my son to go through what I did. I decided to give my son his father's room and started clearing it. There was a phone book. I gently opened it to find,

"Wrong no Sweety - 26579785" !!!!!

Destiny always puts the right numbers together. It's us who interpret it wrong!!!!!


@Sandy......

Now and Then....

I still miss those days ..
that, hours of chatting ..
fighting over little things.
late night and early morning talks through phone ..
weird dreams . “being possessive” attitudes ..
waiting for your texts..
watching your pics and texts over and over...
smiling for no reason..
trusting you blindly..
your hugs and kisses ..
your innocent wishes ..
your fake hopes..


and, now just having..
blank inbox ..
no more “I love u” .
hours of loneliness..
late night cries..
heartbreaking..
shattered dreams,.
deleted memories..
broken trust..
free from hurt feeling..
and No More You...!!


@Sandy....

My Novel…..

Note: For my new readers, Please go through the post titled ‘I Will Always Rememberrrrr….’ To know more about it. Thanks.

On the verge of completing the love story part of my Novel. While writing it I came to know how hard it is to pen down your own Love Story that too when it couldn’t complete in real Life. Trust me each chapter is full of emotions and every word is written direct from the bottom of my heart. From past few days or rather few months I have been thinking a lot about my Novel, only one question in my mind, have I done justice to every chapter written in it or would anybody be able to understand my story? Well let’s see.

The biggest challenge was to write the last few chapters i.e. ‘Present Day’ and ‘The Day we broke Up’, every word written in these chapters is made of my tear which came rolling down my eyes while thinking and writing it.

Once I complete the Love story part, I guess it would take only couple of weeks to finish rest of it e.g. College Life, fun, thrills etc.

Then I guess real fight would start, I mean to get it published, I have got few offers from local publishers but I want it to showcase on National level, so that every avid Novel reader reads it and knows that it might be very easy to break someone’s heart but it’s really difficult to cope up with that pain and might be few would understand and think a lot before breaking-up. 

Let’s see. 

Sweetest Part in Life is to Carry All the Memories in Life BUT Toughest Part is to Stay Without the Person Who is Behind Those Memories..

@Sandy…..

Gone with the wind....

Writing almost about a month,
A Phone call from my friend made me to take sometime out and write.


Two days back i came to know that sweets got married with someone.
Our mutual friend called me and after enquiring about sweets from her,
i got to know this.
I don't know why but coudn't speak a single word for few seconds,
didn't know how to react.
She consoled me for few minutes saying "It's Ok Sandeep, what can we Do. Please stop thinking about her,
You are only hurting urself."


Thinking: (if it was easy for me to forget her, i would have done it four years back only)


This time a different feeling grew inside my heart.
Few days or rather i shud say weeks back she used to sms/call me, but suddenly this decision,
i coudn't understand it.
i felt something different, what m still unable to decide is
whether i shud be Happy for her or sad about me not being with her ?
Matter of fact is that NOW she is gone Forever (only i know how difficult was to write this word).


It's been almost four years now, i don't understand why the hell did i love her so much
that even after such a long time at times i do remember her.


My friends say that Sandeep she doesn't deserve you but my question is
Why 'Me'?
I never hurted anyone, always try to help others, i care for every person,
respect elders, love my friends, don't get angry, try to make others smile,
keep myself in a very calm way.
Guys flirt with girls, sleep with them and then forget,
i never did any thing like that, i juz tried to be honest and faithful in my side of Love,
but what did i get in return...... Hurt, Pain, Betrayal.
Is this fair ?


@Sandy..................

I....Only One

I Like everyone
But i Love only one


I Live for everyone
But i breath only for One


I talk to everyone
But i share everything to Only One


I smile with everyone
But my smile is for only One


I am for everyone
But i Belong to onLy One


& that ONE is ONLY YOU


@Sandy.......

A Rhyme..............

My darling, my lover, my beautiful wife,

Marrying you screwed up my life.

I see your face when I am dreaming.

That's why I always wake up screaming.

Kind, intelligent, loving and hot;

This describes everything you are not.

I thought that I could love no other

That is until I met your sister.

I love your smile, your face, and your eyes

Damn, I'm good at telling lies!

My love, you take my breath away.

What have you stepped in to smell this way?

My feelings for you no words can tell,

Except for maybe 'Go to hell.'

What inspired this amorous rhyme?

Two parts tequila, one part lime :) :) :)

@Sandy............


Disclaimer: Read somewhere, found it funny , thats why posted on my blog.

I Can't..........

I can't promise you perfection,
Cause that is not who I am.

I can't promise you forever,
Cause I don't hold fate within my hands.

I can't promise you the sunshine,
Because I know there will be rain.

I can't promise you complete happiness,
Cause with true love, there comes pain.

I can't promise to always smile,
Cause life always has a way to make me cry.

I can't promise to always stand strong,
Cause it's never easy to want to give life another try

@Sandy..............

If...........

If I Get your Smile;
I don’t Need Flowers..

If I get your Voice;
I don’t Need Music..

If you Speak to Me,
I don’t Need to Listen to Any Body Else..

If you are With Me,
I don’t Need the World.....

@Sandy...........

Beautiful Journey Called Life...........

People always ask me a question “Why I always say ‘Beautiful Journey’ while talking about LIFE?” 

I generally just smile on this question or at times I reply “Because It's my Life and m proud of it.”

Yeah I'm really proud of living on this planet and coming across some very beautiful moments. I never regret doing anything be it Love, Fights, Smoke, etc. or don't feel sad about whatever had happened in the past with me.

What can be done for me completing my Engineering in 5 years instead of 4, or me not able to crack any engineering entrance exam, or break-up with sweets, or my childhood friend dying in an accident, etc. there is only one simple answer to all the situations “Nothing”, it's gone, I can't fix those things but the only thing I can do is to live in present and hope that one day everything would be fine. 

I always cherish being in Love with sweets, because she taught me the beautiful feeling present in this world called “LOVE”, before her I wasn't even aware of it. I just used to watch my friends with their girlfriends spending gala time and felt happiness through them. Before sweets there was only one thought in my mind that the day I would be in a relationship, will make her feel my unconditional love every second, minute, hour and yeah I did the same. Two years and I've had time of my Life. Before sweets I never ever smoke a single cigarette not even a puff of it, this was the only bad part but that's OK, I know have got a strong will power and determination, will quit when I come across a girl of my Life. Till then “It's my Life”.

And it's not only about being in Love but yeah I have made Life Time friends like Abhishek Dubey (a blog for him is already there), Riddhi Mishra (wife of Abhishek Dubey), Avinash Gupta, Charanjeet Singh, Deepika Tyagi, Shivani Parmar,  V. Rajendran, Kritika Krishna, Shubham Pandey, Bhushan Patil etc. The list is endless. I really envy all of them for being with me in my good as well as bad times. Thanks Guys you made me to say “Beautiful Journey called Life”.

I have seen people complaining about things not going according to their dreams, what I would suggest is “Stop Complaining” and be thankful for whatever you have achieved till date. Every moment spent be it good or bad teaches you a lifelong experience. So learn from it and try to be Happy always.

I know after reading this few might think that “it's very easy to say but u don't know what happened with me, my life is different, I'm hurt, and blah blah blah blah….” But have you ever tried to forget your pain and make others happy, trust me the moment you learn it, you will gain lots and lots of friends because nobody wants to be with someone who is always sad. Trust me the feeling to make others smile is “The BEST” above all, u’ll feel like the King of this world. This is what I do, smiling 24X7 and trying to make others also do it. 

No matter what and how hard the situation is Keep Smiling, and trust me your heart will be relaxed. Be calm and patient, one day u’ll get whatever you deserve in this Life but if u’re not able to meet your dreams, do one thing “Smile and think ‘may be in next life time’ ”.

There are people who don't even get food for one whole day but still they live, hoping to get food for atleast one time next day. Now think about yourself, I don't need to say anything, Right?

So, Live as if it's the last time u’hv taken birth as human, cherish what u have & had, Love as if u gonna love forever and smile 24X7. 

It's a ‘Beautiful Journey called Life…” Don't waste it.

@Sandy

I.............

I don't have enough words to say to you,

coz words can't express what I want to,
but, when things go wrong, I'll be there,
and hold you close to show that I care,
I know you love me and I love you too,
and love we have is so pure and true,
Not even death can make us fall apart,
coz when I'll die, you'll still have my heart..

I want you to know I can't live without you,
and you're every reason I am fighting for,
when you'll get stuck, I'll take you through,
and I will care for you from my heart's core
because our love isn't meant for day or two,
but, we will have it for a lifetime and more,
because I love you and you love me too,
and you'll be mine and I'll be forever yours..!!

I am still standing on same spot,
where you left my heart to rot,
at first I thought I'd make it through,
but, seems like I can't stop loving you,
it is getting very hard to be strong,
coz I have been missing you since long,
and now I don't have any more tears to cry,
still my heart can't seem to say goodbye..!!

@Sandy..............

All I see is You............

I remember us,
the way we used to be,
I'd hold you in my arms,
your smile so sweet to me,
But now when I see you,
you look right through me,
I feel so alone now,
but when I close my eyes,
All I see is you.

The love we used to share,
gone up in whirl winds,
will I ever love,
or ever live again,
I am tired of crying,
and I am done trying,
To remember all about you,
but when I close my eyes,
All I see is you

@Sandy......................

It Happened that Night…….Haunted House

I just wanted to share breath taking experience of my life. It was rainy season of year 2008, I was in my final year of engineering graduation. I still remember the date, 22^nd September, almost one month after my breakup with sweets. There was no one in my flat that day, it was raining heavily outside so I chose to stay inside the house only, didn’t know when I fell asleep. Just to tell you that there was a window right infront of my bed.

Suddenly I heard a loud thunder of clouds that hindered my dreams, the first thing which I saw outside my window was lighting as if someone has lighted a halogen bulb and with that I noticed an image of a girl hanging in air right infront of my window, after looking at her I don’t know what happened but cried out loudly as in “aaaaa…..aaaaaaaa……aaaaaaa….aaaaaa”, I still remember, cried out for almost 4-5 minutes and that lightening lasted till that time and when I came to my senses, realised that couldn’t move myself for around 2-3 minutes. I gathered all my courage, took name of GOD and moved myself from the bed. The first thing which I did was to switch on the lights, after the lights were on, again looked towards the window, but couldn’t find anything. I went near the window to check out that who was standing there, as soon as I went near the window, something struck my mind that it’s impossible to stand there because my flat was on 4^th floor. Thinking this I was terrified and went in my balcony to see if I can find someone awake, but my bad everyone was sleeping. I looked at my watch and it was 3:00 a.m., went inside to light an agarbatti and resided ‘Hanuman Chalisa’ 2-3 times, switched on lights of every room, kept an idol of ‘Hanuman’ near my bed and tried to sleep but alas couldn’t sleep rest of the night.

Next day I met neighbours and told them the incident, after that what I came to know was enough to decide immediately of leaving the flat and shifting somewhere else. What they told me “There was a family staying in the same flat but few months back their daughter committed suicide by jumping out of the balcony and since then strange things happen in the flat or on the stair cases.” They also told us that before you the flat was rented to a family and there was a small girl with them, that girl was often found talking to someone invisible on stair cases. After girl’s mother asked her to stay inside the house all the time, her mother fell inside the house and broke her ribs, also at times she used to hear noises, light getting on and off. That family left the flat after 3 months, since then flat was empty for about 4-5 months, the owner performed several religious activities but no result. Later on it was rented to us thinking that might be activities have stopped.

Listening to all these we all decided to leave the flat.

I never believed on ghosts and all but after my personal experience what I came to understand that even if we don’t believe on them, should not disrespect them, because if we believe that God exists then there are chances that souls do.

Whenever I find someone talking about ghosts and laughing on them I tell them what happened with me and ask them not to make fun of those things because as we respect GOD should do same for them.

Disclaimer: This is just a personal experience of my Life and I don’t want my readers and fellow bloggers to get carried away by this post. It’s all about me. 

@Sandy........

12 Points on Attitude

1.It is your attitude at the beginning of a task more than anything else
   that will determine your success or failure.

2.It is your attitude towards life that will determine life's
  attitude towards you. Despite many people's belief to the contrary,
  life pays no favorites.


3.You control your attitude. If you are negative it is because
  you have decided to be negative and not because of other people or
  circumstances.


4.Act as if you have a good attitude. Remember actions trigger
  feelings just as feelings trigger actions.

5.Before a person can achieve the kind of results he wants, he
  must first become that person. He must then think, walk, talk, act and
  conduct himself in all of his affairs, as would the person he wishes
  to become.

6.Treat everybody as the most important person in the world.


7.Attitudes are based on assumptions. In order to change
  attitudes one must first change one's assumptions.


8.Develop the attitude that there are more reasons why you
  should succeed than reasons why you should fail.

9.When you are faced with a problem, adopt the attitude that
  you can and will solve it.


10.We become what we think about. Control your thoughts and you
   will control your life..


11.Radiate the attitude of confidence, of well being, of a
   person who knows where he is going. You will then find good things
   happening to you right away.


12.In order to develop a good attitude, take charge first
   thing in the morning. Do you say, "Good morning" to everyone.

@Sandy................

Must Read....

Happy Living

Daily life can be made happier. It is a matter of choice. It is our attitude that makes us feel happy or unhappy. It is true, we meet all kinds of situations during the day, and some of them may not be conductive to happiness. We can choose to keep thinking about the unhappy events, and we can choose to refuse to think about them, and instead, relish the happy moments. All of us constantly go through various situations and circumstances, but we do not have to let them influence our reactions and feelings. If we let outer events influence our moods, we become their slaves. We lose our freedom. We let our happiness be determined by outer forces. On the other hand, we can free ourselves from outer influences. We can choose to be happy, and we can do a lot to add happiness to our lives.
                                             
What is happiness? It is a feeling of inner peace and satisfaction. It is usually experienced when there are no worries, fears or obsessing thoughts, and this usually happens, when we do something we love to do or when we get, win, gain or achieve something that we value. It seems to be the outcome of positive events, but it actually comes from the inside, triggered by outer events.
                                            
For most people, happiness seems fleeting and temporary, because they allow external circumstances to affect it. Best way to keep it is by always looking at what you have done and not at what you   haven't, associate with Happy people, try to make others happy and Lastly Smile more often.

@Sandy...................

26 Things............

26 Things that I would do for You my Love........

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down .
2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.
3. Stick up for you, but still respect your independence.
4. Give you the remote control during the game.
5. Come up behind you and put my arms around you.
6. Play with your hair .
7. My hands always find yours.
8. Be cute when I really want something.
9. Message u a lot.
10. Dance with you, even if I feel like a dork.
11. Never run out of love.
12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.
13. Realize about being funny when I need to be serious.
14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.
15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.
16. Smile a lot.
17. Plan a romantic date full of cheesy things I wouldn’t normally like to do, just because I know it means a lot to you.
18. Appreciate you.
19. Help others out.
20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.
21. Always give you a peck on the cheek when you depart from my company, even when my friends are watching.
22. Sing, even if I can’t.
23. Have a creative sense of humor.
24. Stare at you.
25. Call for no reason.
26. Quit smoking, chewing, or drinking – just because I love u that much to quit it.

There can be a lot of things but these are just random scribbling from deep core of my heart for my would be.

and Last but not the Least...........   

Nothings Gonna Change my Love for You......

@Sandy............