Wednesday, November 28, 2012

A Rendezvous with me....Part-2 (Career)


Actually m not getting perfect sentence to start this phase of my life, but still let me try……..

My hunt for a “Good” career started in a wrong year when recession was at its peak and, there were no jobs in market.

I have tried to summarize it city wise, though a single blog wasn’t enough for my bad days but still…..
New Delhi --- I went to New Delhi with lots of dream filled in my eyes, hoping for getting a kick start. I used to leave my room in the morning around 7.00 am formally dressed up, running from company to company. At times I had to request the security guards to let me go inside to meet HR but they didn’t allow, of course why would they, it’s their Job.

I used to eat only twice in a day and rest of the times just drinking water (1/- per glass). My dad used to say “Vicky, don’t worry about the money, just eat and drink healthy”. But I never did, because I didn’t want to waste his money and wanted to take a feel of what exactly struggle is all about. Of course you cannot call it a struggle while riding in big cars, enjoying weekends, living a hi-fi life style.

Got a job after 1 month and 2 week as a Game Tester, that also on contract basis, working in the graveyard shift from 4.00 pm to Morning 6:00 am, though my regular shift timings were 4.00 pm to 2:00 am only but I used to sit till morning because there was a policy of getting 100/- bucks per hour after your regular timings. I used to get around 25-30 thousand at the end of each month but it affected my health, cigarette intake increased, so it was not a good experience and worst part was that I didn’t get any relevant document for working in the company so in a way I have no record as such for that period.

I remember going in HCL Technologies every Saturday, standing outside their office to get an entry, reason being I came to know that HCL conducts interviews on weekends. I attended the interview 12 times in 3 months then finally 13th time there was an HR who felt pity (best word to describe) on me and told me that he won’t be able to hire me directly for Software profile but for a BPO and then I can be transferred internally after 9 months. But after working for 6 months I realised this is not what I want, So I decided to quit and left the company on 31st August, 2010.

Mumbai --- After that I went to Mumbai in search of Job. But after continuous travelling in local, running from office to office nothing materialised in IT sector. Eventhough I went to a local wholesale dealer of clothes to work for 4,000/- per month and the work included only operating his computer and updating sale/purchase made on daily basis. Surviving on Vada Pav and water during day time and 4 chapatis and daal at night.

Bangalore—Finally I decided to move to Bangalore a dream city for every IT engineer present in India. Hoping that things would turn into my favour. I stayed there with my cousin sister and his husband. Again my search for job started but result was same as of Delhi and Mumbai. There wasn’t a single company to entertain a fresher like me.

p.s. -- Don’t feel that my dad wasn’t capable enough to provide me with good food and shelter, it’s just that I chose it the other way so that when I start getting success in Life, feelings like ‘Proudness’, ’Anger’ etc. doesn’t even touch me. They used to provide me with lots of money during those days but I never wasted it or tried to minimise my requirements.

At times I got reply from various companies “Sandeep, You shouldn’t join IT World”, “Sandeep, You have wasted being an Engineer, you should have gone for any other background”, “Sandeep, You are only wasting ours as well as your time”, and many other too, by hearing them I used to control my tears infront of everyone but at night I couldn’t. I used to cry a lot when alone in my flat but decided not to give up and keep fighting.

So, finally I did Post Graduation and got a Job in Software Company as a Test Engineer through campus placement.

Now when I close my eyes and look back the struggle which I once made myself go through, seems worth, as things are slowly and gradually turning into my favour. I have got a job today though not the one I always wanted with handsome salary and lavish lifestyle but still m satisfied with it. I know one day everything would be fine with all my dreams achieved in one or the other way. Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping for the best.

@Sandy.........

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

Learn to take Life......

A very fine dialogue by Jack Dawson (Leonardo Di Caprio) from Titanic(1997).......


I got everything I need right here with me. I got air in my lungs, a few blank sheets of paper. I mean, I love waking up in the morning not knowing what's gonna happen or, who I'm gonna meet, where I'm gonna wind up. Just the other night I was sleeping under a bridge and now here I am on the grandest ship in the world having champagne with you fine people. I figure life's a gift and I don't intend on wasting it. You don't know what hand you're gonna get dealt next. 

You "Learn to take Life" as it comes at you..........................................................To make each day count.

@Sandy......................

Friday, November 16, 2012

I'll Never.......

I Promise, I’ll never Leave u.

A little voice of urs makes me feel alive

A little hug of urs makes me feel happy

A little care of urs makes me feel perfect

A little love of urs makes me feel Complete

& a little ignorance of urs kills me inside

I find my reason for living in those moments

Which I have spent in ur care,with u

Now whatever pain I may get

I will never regret loving u

@Sandy...........

Friday, November 9, 2012

Happy Diwali...... :) :)

May this Diwali Light up new dreams, fresh hopes, undiscovered avenues, different perspectives, everything bright & beautiful and fill ur days with pleasant surprises and moments.




Happy Diwali to all my Readers, Fellow Bloggers and Followers......
Keep Smiling.... Bless You.. Tc......

@Sandy........

Thursday, November 1, 2012

29th October,2006


(Actually this post was supposed to be up on 29th itself bt due to lack of time I couldn’t do it. Anyway read below to find out the importance of this day in my Life……… Here I go….)

How can I forget this day, the day which brought at first smiles and Life time memories to me. Yeah, on 29th October,2006 sweets accepted my proposal after thinking for exact 26 days, (I proposed her on 3rd October,2006).

I still remember, it was “Karwa Chauth” that year and in the morning I received a call from her that she would be taking a fast for me. I felt so glad about it and also decided to eat nothing whole day though I kept drinking water ofcourse. At night again she called me up and told me to come outside her house so that she could break her fast just by catching a glimpse of me. So as planned I went outside her house with a friend of mine and after watching me she took a sip of water.

Later while returning to my hostel, she called me up:

Sweets: “Listen, I need to tell you something important”
Me: “Yeah say, what happened?”
Sweets: “(blushing like anything and my heart started pounding) Sandeep”
Me: “Yes sweets”
Sweets: “Sandeep, I…… “
Me: “I.. what yaar”
Sweets: “Shut up and just listen….. I…..Love…..You…..too”
Me: “What (unintentionally I applied brakes of my bike, for few moments I couldn’t believe myself), Thank You sweets, I love you a lot”

This is how she accepted my proposal, I still remember her each line word by word, and when her memories strike me, suddenly my heart feels so lonely, tears come rolling down my eyes, aaahhhhh I really Loved her like anything.

You know when she broke up with me I asked her this question of keeping a “Karwa Chauth” fast for me, I was shocked to hear her reply “Sandeep, it’s a tradition in my house, so that’s no big deal for me, I keep it every year, so how does it matter if I said 2 years it was for you”. This line hurted me so much that I decided no matter what I won’t call her ever. I still don’t call but it’s her only, from time to time she keeps talking to me, knowing about my whereabouts.

It doesn’t matter how hard my try and bury the fact in my heart that I have moved on in my life, but the problem is that whenever I return home, someway or the other I have to face the truth….. I feel so lonely and emptiness in my life without you.


@Sandy......................