I Honestly......

I Honestly Tried to ignore You..
I Honestly Tried to Let You Go..
I Honestly Tried to Forget You..
I Honestly Tried Not to Care For You..
I Honestly Tried Not to Think of You..
I Honestly Tried Not to Long For You..
But,
I Honestly Can't...
Because,
I Honestly Love You so much
&
I Honestly Want you,You Always With Me..
Even if Sometimes I Get Hurt n Cry,
My Love For You Keeps Going Strong...!!

@Sandy........

Change………..

People say “Change is the Part of Life” but I say “Why to change when you make someone part of your Life”.

During the past few years of my Life have met hell lot of people be it a girl or boy. I have made friends, tried my level best to maintain a good relationship with everyone. But what I have observed that people change with time, which includes their feelings and attitude towards you. I just want to ask a simple question WHY? Why to change, how can feelings change for someone. If you have considered someone very close to you, then there comes a day then you don’t even talk to that person like the way before. One day you say to someone that “we are close and good friends” and a week later everything changes, you don’t talk much, show no respect to your “close” friend. What I mean to say, it hurts a lot.

This is not for everyone but for those I have really cared and they took me for granted after a while.

I just want to say that, this is what how I am. In the beginning people say that “Sandeep, u r so caring” and then one day suddenly they say that “Why do you care so much?” That’s what pissses me off. Why am not able to do the same for others, why can’t I change e.g. I still behave same with my college friends the way I was during that time.

I have met a lot of people during my Life, experienced and learnt a lot from them. Few days back one of my friend told me that Sandeep you need to give time to the one you care a lot, time is the best remedy, one should realise that you mean something to him/her. I took her advice and trying to find a way out, m trying to keep myself busy. But the more I try to keep myself busy, the more I find myself distracted with the sweet memories that I possess. Well let’s see, if things become alright or m going to get hurt again.

Why people always do this to me? I asked one of my friends and he told me that “Sandeep, you are very sweet and kind hearted, this world is not meant for the people like you, change yourself a bit. Don’t expect anything from anyone be strong like a Lion, you are a good guy, just focus on your career and leave other things aside” But what to do now, I have been like this since my school days and I can’t change in a single night. I have always tried to be a good human being, behave in a friendly manner with everyone, and try not to hurt others. Tell me, am I wrong?

@Sandy…………………

Year End Greetings......

Year End Greetings for my readers :

if it didn’t Bring you Joy,
Just Leave it Behind.

Let’s Ring in the New Year
With Good Things in Mind.

Let Every Bad Memory Go
That Brought Heartache and Pain.

And let’s Turn a New Leaf
With the Smell of New Rain.

Let’s Forget Past Mistakes
Making Amends for This Year.

Happy New Year-2012!

@Sandy...........

1 Choti c Love Story.....

(Read Somewhere and couldn't help from posting on my Blog.)

Boy and a Girl Loved Each Other Very Much.
Unfortunately the Girl Died..:(

Boy was Upset so Much;
& He Couldn't Stop his Tears.
He Kept on Crying Day & Night..:'(

Many People Gave Sympathy,
But No Argument Could Stop His Tears.

One Night He Slept and had a Dream;
He Saw the Girl in Heaven with So Many Girls of Her age.
He Felt Relax..

But He Noticed that Every Girl was in Fairy Dress;
& had a Lightened Candle in their Hands,
but his GF had a Candle which was not Lightened..!

He asked Her:
"Y Yewr Candle is not Lightened?"

She said:

"Whenever I Enlighten My Candle;
Yewr Tears fall on it..
Please Stop Crying ♥

@Sandy...........

Save A Girl Child....

Diary Of A Baby

(In India there places where people still don't feel good when a girl takes birth in there house,so this message is for them.)


15th jun :- I got attached with ovary
17th jun :- I’m a tissue now
30 Jun :- Mom said to dad, “ You’re going to be a father”
MOM AND DAD ARE VERY HAPPY
15th Sept :- I Can feel my heartbeat
14oct :- I have Little hands, legs head and a stomach.
13Nov :- Today i was in a Ultra scan
WOW ! I m a girl
14Nov : I was DEAD!
My mom and dad Killed me.
WHY?
Is it just Because I was a girl?
People love to have a Mother , AWife, and of course a girlfriend too
Then why not a daughter !!!

If u're Human then please pass this message via every means be it SMS or Mail or anything.......but please do....

"Save A Girl Child..."

@Sandy.......

One Extra Bedroom......

A Short Story ::::::

As the dream of most parents I had acquired a degree in Software Engineering and joined a company based in USA, the land of braves and opportunity. When I arrived in the USA, it was as if a dream had come true.

Here at last I was in the place where I want to be. I decided I would be staying in this country for about Five years in which time I would have earned enough money to settle down in India.

My father was a government employee and after his retirement, the only asset he could acquire was a decent one bedroom flat.

I wanted to do some thing more than him. I started feeling homesick and lonely as the time passed. I used to call home and speak to my parents every week using cheap international phone cards. Two years passed, two years of Burgers at McDonald's and pizzas and discos and 2 years watching the foreign exchange
rate getting happy whenever the Rupee value went down.

Finally I decided to get married. Told my parents that I have only 10 days of holidays and everything must be done within these 10 days. I got my ticket booked in the cheapest flight. Was jubilant and was actually enjoying hopping for gifts for all my friends back home. If I miss anyone then there will be talks. After reaching home I spent home one week going through all the photographs of girls and as the time was getting shorter I was forced to select one candidate.

In-laws told me, to my surprise, that I would have to get married in 2-3 days, as I will not get anymore holidays. After the marriage, it was time to return to USA, after giving some money to my parents and telling the neighbors to look after them, we returned to USA.

My wife enjoyed this country for about two months and then she started feeling lonely. The frequency of calling India increased to twice in a week sometimes 3 times a week. Our savings started diminishing.

After two more years we started to have kids. Two lovely kids, a boy and a girl, were gifted to us
by the almighty. Every time I spoke to my parents, they asked me to come to India so that they can see their grand-children.

Every year I decide to go to India… But part work part monetary conditions prevented it. Years went by and visiting India was a distant dream. Then suddenly one day I got a message that my parents were seriously sick. I tried but I couldn't get any holidays and thus could not go to India ... The next message I got was my parents had passed away and as there was no one to do the last rights the society members had done whatever they could. I was depressed. My parents had passed away without seeing their grand children.

After couple more years passed away, much to my children's dislike and my wife's joy we returned to India to settle down. I started to look for a suitable property, but to my dismay my savings were short and the property prices had gone up during all these years. I had to return to the USA...

My wife refused to come back with me and my children refused to stay in India... My 2 children and I returned to USA after promising my wife I would be back for good after two years.

Time passed by, my daughter decided to get married to an American and my son was happy living in USA... I decided that had enough and wound-up every thing and returned to India.... I had just enough money to buy a decent 02 bedroom flat in a well-developed locality.

Now I am 60 years old and the only time I go out of the flat is for the routine visit to the nearby temple. My faithful wife has also left me and gone to the holy abode.

Sometimes

I wondered was it worth all this?

My father, even after staying in India,

Had a house to his name and I too have the same nothing more.

I lost my parents and children for just ONE EXTRA BEDROOM.

Looking out from the window I see a lot of children dancing. This damned cable TV has spoiled our new generation and these children are losing their values and culture because of it. I get occasional cards from my children asking I am alright. Well at least they remember me.

Now perhaps after I die it will be the neighbours again who will be performing my last rights, God Bless them.

But the question
Still remains 'was all this worth it?'

I am still searching for an answer.................!!!

START THINKING

IS IT JUST FOR ONE EXTRA BEDROOM???

LIFE IS BEYOND THIS …..DON'T JUST LEAVE YOUR LIFE ……..
START LIVING IT …….


LIVE IT AS YOU WANT IT TO BE …… 

@Sandy......... 

11th December......

Many Many Happy Returns Of The Day Sweets, Bless You.
I wish that you get all that you wish for and deserve in this beautiful journey called LIFE.


u knw its been now 3 yrs,bt I dun have any answer why the hell I wanna wish u on ur b'day,why I juz wanna hear ur voice.
People juz keep an affair and forget then why m not able to do the same way, why m I being punished to go through the pain.
I didnt hurt anyone, I didnt do anything wrong with anyone, always try to keep everyone happy and smiling then why m still going through the unbearable Pain.


The only best thing that happened today is that I sent her a sms and she replied as "Thank You".It was juz a thank u message but I kept reading it for hours.
I always pick up a call from an unknown number,its been 3 years bt the vision of Sweets calling me will stay with me forever.


Sweets and I had the perfect Life together with more Love than a lot of people know in a Life Time and then She went away,forever.
She saved my Life,She taught me everything about Life,Hope and a long journey ahead,I always miss her,but Love is Like a wind,I can't see it but I can feel it.I will always remember and cherish the moments spent with her.


She Left me.... I said to myself.... "Who cares?"..
My heart said..... "You do....! stupid!"


@Sandy................

Attitude...........

The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, than education, than money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company… a church… a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past… we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it.

@Sandy............... 

50th Post......

I've been walked on, used and forgotten but I don't regret one moment of it because in those moments, I've learned a lot. I've learned who I can trust and can't. I've learned the meaning of friendship. I've learned how to tell when people are lying and when they're sincere. I've learned how to be a teenager, and how to grow up when I need to... I've been to hell and back a few times, and I won't ever take what I have for granted. This is life, live it one day at a time. You never know how many days you've got left. Stay happy, smile as much as you can......

@Sandy..............

Mumbai.....

yeah...I was in Mumbai for 2 days last weekend :) :) :) :) 
I was with my favorite and best frnds Abhishek Dubey and Riddhi Mishra (both are getting married on 28th Jan 2012), also we were accompanied by Abhishek's younger brother,Sujay Pandey and elder brother's wife,Namrata Bhabhi.In mumbai Riddhi's friend Richa joined us for two days. 
We left for mumbai on friday night, reached there around 11.30 pm after dinner and dropping Riddhi & Bhabhi at Richa's place we left for Ankit's house as we planned to stay there only.Unfortunately we coudnt meet Ankit reason being he was stuck with some work in office.
The main motto of our trip was Shopping and only Shopping for the most awaited Abhishek and Riddhi's wedding.


26/11/11,Saturday :
We started on Saturday a bit late around 12.00 noon. First we went to Mallad West for shopping,after spending there almost half a day and running from 1 shop to another we decided to have some snacks and leave for Santa Cruz.....yeah yeah again for shopping.....
No its not like the shops or the products were not good,Riddhi and everyone liked few dresses but when it comes to wedding everybody wants THE BEST.....Right.......
We reached Santa Cruz around 4.30 pm and first we went to "Seasons", its huge shop for ladies wedding outfit. After spending there(i mean only in the Shop) for around 2 hours we went to another "Friendship",finally after 9 hours of search and trying almost 10-12 dresses Riddhi and everyone liked a Bride's dress which was the best of all Riddhi tried since morning.I took a deep breath as in Riddhi's hunt for Bridal dress is over.... hehe :)
After that we went to (only Abhishek,Sujay and Me)...... Na Na Na Na......let it be.....hehe.....
Reached home at 2.00 am......went straight away to bed.....and then in my dreams..... :) :)


27/11/11,Sunday :
We left Ankit's place with bag and baggage at 11.30 am for Santa Cruz. After few mins (few mins  = 30 mins), Sujay and me realised that we are heading in the opposite direction of Santa Cruz. Thanks to Abhishek, while hiring Auto he told him "Mallad" as our destination, no worries Auto took a U-Turn and finally we reached Santa Cruz. Riddhi, Richa and Bhabhi also joined us. After having Sandwich (it was damm tasty),we again started on our mission i.e. Shoppingggggggggg :).
Thereafter we decided to go Bandra, this time for Abhishek,reached there at 2.30 pm, straightaway went to "Amar Sons" shop for BrideGroom's wedding dress. Abhishek tried 2-3 out of which we liked one very much but as I said earlier....It's wedding time and everyone wants to be THE BEST.....esp the Bride and BrideGroom, obviously its their day, they should.
So, we left for Dadar searching for a shop named "Manyavar" but by the time we reached there,realised that its already too late and wont be possible for us as our bus departure time was 5.30 pm and it was already 4.00 pm. So we decided to have some snacks and leave for Pune.
We went to a restaurant named "Udupi" in Dadar only.
At 5.00 pm we left the restaurant for our bus stop and Richa left for her place.
Bus left mumbai at 5.30 pm for Pune. I didnt want to return this time.aaahhhhh but Office-Office !!!!


I didn't buy anything but was enjoying watching them shop and how Riddhi tried every dress and then asked for one's opinion.......
seriously had fun, enjoyed a lot there.... 


For my friends :::::


Abhishek Dubey -- as usual he was sweet and again "Bullying (only Me)". I guess he has developed this as a Hobby about bullying me...hehe....when m around he coudnt control himself.....no no I don't mind at all reason being.....He is "Abhishek".....My Best friend and the BEST guy have ever come across in this Journey called Life.....I can go on and on writing about A.D.(thats wat people call him) but lemme stop here only.....


Riddhi Mishra -- Abhishek's GF ....no no....Sorry....Now Fiance :)..... and soon to be WIFE .... I know this gal since 2005. She is very sweet and a nice gal........My very good friend..... A friend for whom I care and respect a lot. 


Sujay Pandey -- Abhishek's younger brother. I know this fellow from past 4 years. But there isn't much to say about him as we have hardly spoken with each other, no that doesnt mean he is not a gud guy but I don't know him as in person. Sorry for now Sujay.


Namrata Bhabhi -- Abhishek's elder brother Akshay Bhaiya's wife. I have met only twice with her. Just that it was nice of her to accompany us for the weekend.


Richa Jhamb -- Richa is Riddhi's one of good friends.She was my junior in College.I don't know her much as in person. But this time I felt that she is a nice gal reason being, u know who cares these days to leave all their work and go shopping that too for friend's wedding in this hot weather. Give me a single example when have u seen one doing so much for a friend. That was really nice of her.




The only worst part was hot and humid climate ,also forgot to click pictures for future memories......


@Sandy........